We leave the sound on cuz silence is harder.

We leave the sound on cuz silence is harder, a beautiful songwritter once wrote, and its true a lot of the time. We need to be forever stimulated by something. A walk home would be too far without listening to an ipod. An trip to the grocery store, nearly unbearable. At home I don't eat in silence; the tv or my computer is always distracting me from thought.

But at night, outside, a lot of the time I will spend it just quietly out there; no music, no anything to distract my thoughts. It allows for a lot of reflection time at the end of all my days. Sometimes I don;t have much to think about other than the Mariner case for property law, but usually I can store that somewhere else, and focus on something unrelated to school. Anything else. And the nights lend themsleves beautifully to that. Each one carries with it a different pattern of rustling in the trees, or the clouds passing by or the different constellations in the sky. Sometimes the starts are subtle and sometimes the night is crystal clear. The moon comes in its cycles, and reminds me of certain times aligning with them, because I spend so much time looking at the sky...I am a feind of the night. I am an appreciator of the evening, and the late afternoon, but I have never been a morning lover. I just can't do them. I know they are beautiful of their own accord, they feel so sleepy and like you're the only one up and saying hello to the day. I have remarkable had that experience in many different countries and cities, and watching a city wake up is something new everywhere, and its fascinating and wonderful to watch.

But still, there is something about the night that makes it more inherently appealing. Most people are sleeping, and you are still up. You know others are up too though, other night lovers, and there are so many possibilities of what people are doing up so late. No matter what you are doing, you know you have someone somewhere that is doing the same thing. Someone else is cramming for their property exam. Someone is blazing. Someone is folding their laundry...shite I haven't done that yet. Someone is watching a movie as they fall asleep. Its comforting to know.

Its been quite the rant, hopefully semi-coherent. I make no promises either way, but if you made it this far, great. I have studied a lot of property and am due to get up in 4.5 hours to finish up. Oh god. that is foul. at least im chilling right now....

rach, from a cloudy, starless, chilly, damp, regina spektor filled night